Good news, for a change

I started on Avonex on Friday. My doctor had me take only a 1/2 dose. He wanted me to take 3 Aleve when I took the shot, and another 2 the next morning -- 5 in a 12 hour period (recommended dosage only 3 in a 24 hour period). So, I did as instructed -- Mom gave me the shot.

First, it didn't hurt. I used to give blood pretty often and that hurt a lot more.

Second, I didn't go on Avonex a year ago when I was first diagnosed because I was afraid of the side effects. Yes, I only took 1/2 dose and I won't be up to full dosage for a month, but even if my side effects are twice as bad, the reality is that zero times two is still zero. No problems whatsoever. I slept fine. No soreness, no aching, no fever, no chills. Nothing. Mom read up on this and she says that a lot of people do well on this step-up method, then don't react well to the full dose. I am not scared any more, though. I rarely experience side effects from anything and I am really hoping that this will continue to be the same.

And, great news ... the double vision seems to be subsiding. I took the prism off today and have seen clearly for most of the day. Once in a while I get a moment or two of screwed-up sight, but I feel better because I'm not stumbling around so much -- I'm not as unsure on my feet as I have been since I started using the prism. Yeah!

And, the best news -- I went back on Lexapro yesterday. I admit it. I hit bottom. I was pushing the line at suicidal, and I knew it. I called the shrink at school and told him that I just wanted one day where I didn't really care so much about not yet having a job and about having MS. He saw me and gave me a 12 week supply (cause I'm broke and have no prescription coverage). And I got my wish -- who really cares about such trivial shit as jobs and debilitating diseases? Happy, happy, happy.

I'd be much happier, though, if Ophelia would stop "big girl barking" at the kids in the yard next door on their damned trampolene. It's really time for bed, dammit.